Tear me apart

I don't really cry.
But I know how to make people cry,
even taugh guys...
I can even cry on demand.
But I don't cry like the other human beings, to show my emotions.

Those days, I wanted to cry but I wasn't able, even on demand.
I was as frozen inside.
I have made so many people cry around me, without wanting it.
It was as if I was watching a TV. It was cold and unreal. NO compassion at all.

Then, today, I have cried...
till I was not able to breath,
I cried and stayed quiet.
I explored my sadness and the solitude of my soul.

Then I went to the cinema
just to be sure that my life was a divine comedy.

My question is will I finally manage to be myself ?